morning thoughts

We set up a web site to keep people up to date on my husband's illness ( I still can't say leukemia) Leu ke me ia. There. I said it.

Last night a friend drove me to Cleveland Clinic- and when we came out of the hospital and into the parking deck- we realized we had No Idea where we had left the car. It was quite the dilema. We checked out a level- not it -up the elevator, down the elevator eventually we resorted to pushing the panic button and following the noise- "no it sounds like that way"- I'm sure we didn't disturb anyone........... and somehow we managed to have a good laugh... Imentioned this experience when I posted last night.....

This morning I had an email waiting from a high school friends of mine. She and I spent several weeks bumming around Europe with backpacks and naitivity shortly after college. She reminded me of the night we stayed with a lady in Paris ( we got her name out of a book-perfectly safe!) Anyway- there were 3 apartment buildings that all looked alike. We left, went out to see the city- and when we returned we had no idea what apartment building we were staying in. We spoke no French, of course. We had no phone number to call. All our possessions were in our backpacks in that apartment building. I don't know how long we wandered, in and out- up the elevator, down a hall- "is this it?" "I don't know" Back down the hall, down the elevator outside to stare at the buildings again.... Oh to be young again!

She reminded me of that memory- gave me a good laugh- a sorely needed laugh, and then she told me to find some quiet time for me. It seems that the people who know me best are telling me the same thing- find some quiet time.

So I did- I am- right now..... I opened up my bible- which I need to do more often. It opened to Isaiah 43 Here are a couple snippets .... this is what the Lord says- he who created you..... he who formed you... Fear not, for I have redeemed you... I have summoned you by name.... you are mine... When you pass through the waters, I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you, When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, the flames will not set you ablaze, For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy one of Israel, your Savior......Since you are precious and honored in my sight and because I love you.....Do not be afraid for I am with you

That is something I can hang onto today- at this time when I am so tired- and truly- so afraid..